When all of a sudden light diminishes from your eye. When all you can think about is “…that’s impossible” … when your mind numbs and the body mind coordination is zero. That’s exactly when your mind rejects all sorts of information negating your idea of loss.
I lost sanity on all grounds when I heard the news. I still can’t recall and dictate the rush of emotions, thoughts and simply rejection I encountered when hearing the news. I still am unable to accept that we no longer shall write or say TUS next to the 52nd Dai of Dawat-e-Hadya Syedna Mohammad Burhanuddin.
It took me hours in Yousufi Masjid to realize that no Maula hasnt left us. He just left us in the physical world preparing us with confidence for the world hereafter, and it is this time that we have to realize that Maula made us what we are today. It is this time we realize that he is with us. His divine presence shall never leave us. With this belief and a belief I am sure about, I got up from the masjid thinking the presence of Maula can never be challenged. He is with us, watching and as usual looking after his children every minute and second of the day, for this lifetime, hereafter and ever after.
On 16th January 2014 I wrote “Memoirs of Shahzada Huzefa Bhaisaheb Mohiyuddin” in which recalling the video of Burhanuddin Maula( this year relayed world over on Milad un Nabi AS) I wrote ” … the saheb (Shahzada Huzefa BS) did talaqi and made his way for his beloved father TUS.” I didn’t know that it was just a matter of a day…
There is a torment of words and emotions that render me incapable to focus. The only solution I find is to express, remember and share with the world today, that it is today that I feel I have lost all interest in this world today.
However the lashkar of Hussain AS, The lashkar of Imam uz Zaman shall live and stay till the day of judgement. That I know is an eternal fact.
Maula Burhanuddin shall live in our hearts, our minds and in ours souls forever…
May Allah give patience to Maula Aali Qadr TUS, All sahebs and momineen worldwide to bear the unbearable burden life imposed on us today.